A lot has changed in my life recently. I'm realizing now that I have more changes to make going forward. Hopefully, by sharing my journey I'll stick to it.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Didn't see that coming

The last few days, I was out sick with a flu-like issue. So while I was on the couch drinking plenty of fluids yesterday, I got a phone call from my contact at the temp agency I'm working through. The company I was working at had decided that they no longer needed any of the temps - effective immediately. Yes, there is a chance that some of us may be hired on permanently in February, but that's a very slim chance. I'm hoping to pick up more hours at the restaurant I've been working at off and on, but it's not going to come close to making up for the paycheck I'm losing. I'm eligible for unemployment apparently, but that just makes it seem so real, so I'm going to hold off on filing until I know how things are going to go with the job I've been interviewing for. If it doesn't work out, I'll file and then go crazy applying for just about any job I can find.

I've decided that at least for now, while I'm in job limbo, I'm going to try to use my time productively. Today was a lot like a Saturday for me. I ran errands, cleaned the kitchen, and took care of a few other things. I also got back onto the exercise horse by walking 1.64 miles around my neighborhood. I'm rounding out the night with a great cathartic release provided by the magic of television: Big Bang Theory, Grey's Anatomy, and Private Practice. I'm trying to just maintain balance between taking care of myself, moving on, and dealing with everything that's happened. I guess at the very least, I have more time for the gym. :-)

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Starting in the Middle

When telling a story, most people start at the beginning. But what if the beginning is hard to pinpoint? Was the beginning of the changes in my life in May when I graduated and moved out on my own? Was it two years ago when I decided to radically change my major over the course of one weekend? Was it when I graduated high school and was able to put the not-always-pleasant experience behind me? I'm not going back five years, or even two; six months is even a lot to try to cover, so I'm starting in the middle.

In the past eight months, I've graduated from College, moved out on my own, thought I had my dream job, found out I didn't have my dream job, gained about 15 pounds, and settled into a routine of working two jobs. I've worked on accepting my current employment situation (though that may be changing soon *fingers crossed*), but, clearly, some things need to change. Again.

The problem is that I'm not always the best at initiating changes. I've lost track of the number of times I've decided to get in shape. I've recently joined a gym, and was really good about going for a while - until I got sick and confined to my apartment for a week. That was 6 weeks ago. I baked a pan of brownies last night. Yeah, this is working real well. But as of today, that is changing. The brownies (ok, most of them) are going into the freezer, and I am going to the gym after work on Monday.

Obviously, that is not the only change I need to make, but I'm going to start there first. My hope is that by making this public, I will have the perseverance to keep moving forward, even though I'm going to hold off sharing this with my family and friends for a while.

I guess this is a beginning after all.